It’s been an emotional week…
Today is my last day working at my full-time, corporate job. Today is my last day sitting in a cubicle with no windows. Today is my last day listening to my co-workers curse into their phones. Today is my last day filling out a timesheet online. It is time to move on, time to move toward my passion for yoga!
And so I begin a new chapter of my life. I prefer to choose words that emphasize a positive slant, so rather than say I am “quitting”, I emphasize that I am “letting go of” my day job.
And you’d think I’d be doing cartwheels down the hallway, right? Don’t get me wrong- the possibilities are endless, and I am excited to embrace my dream of teaching full-time. But with any change, there is a bit of emotional turmoil. I am comfortable and safe at my corporate job, and when I walk out the door at the end of today, I have no idea what the future will bring. So there have been tears this week, and I have let them flow. In a way, I am softly grieving. Thank goodness for my special guy, who supports me through it all. And I’ve been reminding myself what I always tell my students: be extra gentle with yourself during big life transitions. Honor the process. It takes time to shift gears!
I am curious what it will feel like to do what I love every single day? I have an inkling that it will be, overall, blissful. Last night I arrived at the yoga studio feeling burnt out, stressed, buzzed, antsy. I practiced for about 45 minutes before teaching, and by the time I got home from class, I felt like a completely different person. I went from frazzled to calm, from crying to content, from distracted to focused, and from heavy to light. And even though I am well aware of how powerful the practice can be, I am still sometimes surprised by its’ magic and the way it can transform a mood so gracefully. Yoga dissolves the things that don’t matter and brings you into your true SELF. All the details of everyday life melt away, and you are left with pure love.
My heart swelled when I received this e-mail message from a co-worker this week: “I have often thought about trying yoga but have not done it yet. After reading your story, I am going to look and see where a yoga class is in the town I live. Hopefully I have the same results you did.”
I hope this is the first of many souls that I will inspire to practice yoga. I am ready for this next chapter. To begin the celebration, on the way to my office I stopped in Starbucks and bought myself the gift of a Peppermint Mocha Latte (soy, no whip), and enjoyed it in my awesome recycled travel mug! I am so blessed.
Do you recognize how you positively impact others when you let your inner light shine?